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The Catalyst
You asked me tonight "How are you?" My reply was honest and instant. "I have never felt better in my life." And tomorrow, the same will be true. You have awakened in me a new sense, a magnet constantly pointing at your happiness and love. And I will tell you the moment it really started. The thing that really woke me up to the potential for giving myself to you was my recent email, telling someone I didn't want them in my life. You encouraged me, you told me what it would mean to you, but you also told me what it would mean to me. I was so anxious; you know who I didn't want to disappoint. But I trusted you, and took that leap that I never would have taken on my own. I had read about Female Led Relationships in the past, and in my desperation and guilt I had considered it, but we weren't in a place of strength. I would have been coming to you as a supplicant, begging for you to take me, and it would have been taking care of me. However, this time, I just closed my eyes and had faith in you. I put my life in your hands.
What an amazing feeling that was, like flying in a chopper into enemy territory. I was anxious, psyched, and my senses were awake. And you were right. You were 100% RIGHT! About something I never could have wrapped my head around. You truly have my heart in your hands, and there is no better place for it.
Because, instead of a groveling supplicant, I am a man, standing erect, eyes wide open, but only seeing you and your love and wisdom. I walk into this proud, ready to be whatever you need for your happiness, because in your happiness, I find joy. Just point, and it will be done.
I am yours, blood and bone.